monkey-jiggle

2008-09-18T21:21:00.008+08:00

Life isn't like a rollercoaster so far. It has been a total flat of shag months for me. Days at work are definitely undefined. It is hard being happy nowadays. Having a plastered smile wherever I go and always looking stoned at work. The world is oh so big. I met plentiful of people with characters from A-Z that are of indescribable. 'People=Shit', my boyfriend's favourite line. Oh yes, I am shitty too. God, please save me. Gah!

Oh, for having students being attached to my ward for their clinical practice, it got me this.

A 'Thank You' card. So sweet right?

I know I'm a bit outdated. I have been following the game show, 'The Moment of Truth' only recently in AXN Channel. It airs on every Wednesday at 10pm. If some of you may have not known, it's a game show whereby participants have to declare truth in front of public which may even involve very personal questions just to win loads of cash. Okay that is so crazy and scary.

Just to side track, last September 13th was Val's birthday. It didn't turn out the way me and Naney planned but oh well, it surprised her nevertheless.

"Glad you could make it. We are always here through thick and thin. Happy 21st Birthday!"

-Naney & Jee.

Anyway, fasting month is here. A week or so before Eid Mubarak arrives. None that I know seems as excited as last time over this Raya. That includes me. The fact that it is my first time celebrating Raya as a working adult just deepened the sore I have in me. Of having busy schedules and tiring shifts, there will definitely be lesser house visits and of course, no more of those wishful thoughts of getting green packets! Yada yada, whatever.

Of all the days, I only looked forward to my off days and seeing him.

I miss you, baby.

2008-07-30T18:12:00.000+08:00

It's been a while since I last blogged. I am so drained out with work. And today, I am able to breathe for having 2 consecutive off days after a looooong stretched of working days. Finally can!

Crazy or what?
Sheesh.

2008-06-07T17:55:00.008+08:00

Barely a month old in the ward and good grievance...

Three phases at one go. Seriously, what the hell. Grrr!

I need to be sedated, NOW.

2008-05-18T17:50:00.001+08:00

Last Wednesday was way filled with excitement for the latest batch of SGH staffs. My colleagues and I anxiously sat down obediently with mouth kept shut and tight, waiting to know our individual posting. My stomach was filled with butterflies, cocoons and even caterpillars. That day was much more terrifying than the time when I had to go back to school to collect my O-level result. More or less, that day determines my first step of nursing career.

Everyone was mumbling to oneself and some even prayed that they will get the ward they had opted. So, not getting the department that one hoped for definitely brings disappointments and sudden breakdown.

As usual, still in denial state, I was hoping that I could get into Specialist Outpatient Clinic (SOC) by luck so that I can enjoy office hours and a weekend off. Eventually, I had to forgo that thought because they don't encourage fresh graduands to join SOC.

Anyway, Alhamdulillah I got what I have opted in one of my choice. Days have passed. Lectures have come to an end. It's time for us to be in the ward. It has never been easy during student days. It is tougher now than before. Much much more!

I spent most hours at work and slept like a log each time I got home. It somehow became a routine habit. I am lacking of sleeps, if you must know. I'm practically sighing each time I wake up to go to work, sighing each time I step out of the house (even before the sun rises), sighing each time I know my off days will be random. Of course, to go out unnecessarily after work became a big hesitant now. What more with auditing going on in July and a test on Intravenous Medications in June. Boy, it's such a chore!

I want and need to take a breather, especially during off days.

I have never known that working life is tough. Not until I embarked this journey myself. Not until this 20 years of life.

I am sitting on the brink of a sampan in the middle of the deep blue sea. I can fall anytime in the day/night, fearing of getting drown and never able to float.

2008-05-03T21:14:00.002+08:00

She is a silent killer who indirectly scrapes off your tissue cavities and be contented when she sees you bleed continuously. She is one egoistic devil who thinks she is perfect and flawless. That is so scary.

She has made me lose my mind, definitely not in a good way.

Wanted:

Name: De-vel-li-shious B*tch
Age: 20 over years
Occupation: Preacher-cum-Pretender
Hobbies: Digs into people’s life and make a big hu-ha out of it.
Crime: A silent killer is the worst killer ever.

Please find her and do justice.
I am so drained out.

2008-05-03T19:51:00.008+08:00

Who would have thought that I would be what I am today. I seriously have never imagined that I would even be in this position I am currently in. I guessed, I can no longer hear that typical question, "So, what do you want to be when you grow up?" Yet another phase in life, a bigger responsibility awaits me.

I officially donned on my uniform last Monday. It was a great difference as compared to when I was having attachments as a student. My stomach was filled with millions of butterflies the moment I stepped out of the house that very morning. Every step I took, it felt like all eyes were on me. Plus, I took the same bus with this old man whom I used to nurse during my days as a student. Oh well, let's not talk about it. Otherwise, my days at work is nothing exciting actually. It's practically the same old thing other than the new changed uniform. Bah.

Okay, so I am having this foundation programme for 21-days at work. I can tell you that it totally bores me. So does majority of my colleagues. The programmes are merely lectures and all we need to do is just sit, listen and perhaps do some scribbling. Trust me, that was not an easy task. Most of us were either dozing off, chatting away or live in our own world. Apart from that, we almost experienced butt sores and body stiffness.

My friends and I realised that we might just turn vegetable or comatose any time soon, and decided to stop stoning. We did few activities, to the extent that we even played Tic Tac Toe and Bingo, just to keep ourselves awake and occupied. Since we are pretty good at entertaining ourselves, days at work wasn't that bad after all.

Credits to Khairiyah, she started off with that nonsensical Malay poetry sessions. For I am such a sweetheart who loves to laugh at my own joke, I shall type all of it here. I apologise to those who do not understand Malay language.
[K=Khairiyah, J=Me, A=Afida]

K - Bangun pagi mencari rotan,
Mencari rotan dengan Cik Dolah;
Wahai Nazihah anak Cik Emran,
Aku boring nak balik lah!

J - Duduk-duduk bontot sakit,
Aku ngantuk, muka pun melekit;
Perut aku mintak dipicit,
Asik berak, juboh pun perit!

K - Ikot mak pergi market,
Sambil berjalan makan bangkit;
Nak tau kenape juboh kau perit,
Pasal kau anak berpenyakit.

J - Afida Aziz di kiri Khairiyah,
Khairiyah pulak di kiri Nazihah;
Kanan Nazihah penuh dengan orang cina;
Aku dah tak boleh fikir lah gila.

J - Empat lima babi beranak,
Makan babi aku tak nak;
Besok off pasal Labour Day,
Kenapa keling suka cakap ‘Dey’?

K - Pergi pancing nak kan siakap,
Sambil menunggu ternampak ular;
Sebab kenape diorang suka cakap,
Sumpah! Sungguh aku tak tau lar.

K - Masuk dapur makan biscuit,
Dengar pulak lagu Lil Wayne;
Boleh aku tanya sikit,
Kau ngan Azri bila nak kawin?

J - Bunga melur, bunga rampai,
Kau ni suka soal bukan-bukan;
Kalau jodoh aku dah sampai,
Nanti aku jemput kau dengan Syaihan.

K - Pergi pasar nak beli ikan,
On the way balik terjatuh perigi;
Sebab kenapa aku soal bukan-bukan,
Otak buntu takleh fikir lagi.

J - Satu dua tiga empat,
Boyfriend aku favourite roti kirai;
Kau dan aku kan dah penat,
Apa kata kau tutup tirai?

A - Nenek aku masak roti kirai,
Aku pulak tak suka makan kari;
Sebagai tanda pembuka tirai,
Cubalah beli pantunku ini.

K - Afida pergi beli jelly,
Jelly pulak ada kelapa;
Memang boleh aku beli,
Tapi nak beli pakai apa?

A - Pergi ke pasar beli ikan,
Terserempak pulak dengan Mat kepit;
Kalau kau tak ada duit nak belikan,
Suroh JeeJee supply kan duit sikit.

J - Cheryl Chng suka makan kerepek,
Nenek aku rajin buat kek;
Khairiyah makan roti jangan tercekik,
Eh Afida, jangan nak merepek!

That’s it. Those paragraphs sure perk our blues in the lecture hall, you know.

Not to forget, the only daughter of Mr Chng. She coincidentally collected all of our 5 identity cards and creates a story out of them. That was so hilarious! We seriously do look like illegal immigrants from all over the world.

From left to right: Vietnamese, China, Indonesian, Sri Lankan, Malaysian.

Hahaha. What the hell.

So, a week has passed and soon I will come to know which ward I am posted to. After which I have completed the foundation programme, I will be on my feet in the ward as one of them. Boy, I am tensed. I miss my days as a student.

This shall be the next question I hope to hear. "Now what do you want to be in the future?" since I am not liable to answer to, "So, what do you want to be when you grow up?"

I want to be a rich tai-tai.
Pretty please?

2008-04-25T20:54:00.000+08:00

Just a random entry. My latest creation, 'Portugese Egg Tart'.

Yey!

2008-04-20T15:32:00.003+08:00

I couldn't stop but kept thinking about that movie, 'AWAKE'. Apart from those medical scenes and terms, I guessed it all boils down to how one make sacrifices and behold trust. I so, so love it. I have yet to catch 'DEFINITELY, MAYBE', 'THE FUNNY GAMES U.S.' and 'THE FORBIDDEN KINGDOM', all before work commences. I foresee myself being a typical haggard-looking lady in due time. Boy, I so need a good promising life in future to not maintain that haggard look. Tsk.

I was watching YouTube earlier on and definitely got my eyes glued to the screen. To all happy horny bastards, ~~like~~ unlike me, do enjoy.

2008-04-19T23:55:00.000+08:00

Okay, first thing first. If you must know, I was the one who instructed the stylist to cut my hair likewise. I seriously have no idea why my confidence level dropped drastically after this haircut. That is so unlike me! I love going to hair salon, trying out new hairstyles as often as once a month but nothing as bad as this has happened. I was paranoid over this hair of mine that I didn't even crave to leave the house (knowing that I am quite a roamer.) Enough about that issue, I went out eventually with Nani yesterday. I was practically wearing a head band to make myself feel good. Nonetheless, Nani commented that I looked like an apple without the band on. So where did we go to? Well yes, another trip again to the hair salon in town.

I thought it'd be better if I colour my hair to give it some shape. I asked for my boyfriend's opinion and he finally agreed after a few pleads of us meeting up first. So off I went to colour my hair with Nani. Finally, I feel my hair looks better. I was glad, I was relieved.

You might think the issue of the hair was over by then. No it was not. Questions by questions awaited me, like I was being interrogated. First, it was Nani. Then, I received a cold shoulder from my boyfriend. Finally, it was my mom. The common thing that came out from them was, "Are you sure your hair colour is allowed by the hospital?" Oh my god! Everyone was so ~~stressed out~~ concerned, especially Azri and all I replied was "Don't worry la. I know what I am doing."

And yes, you must be wondering what colour is my hair now. A black based with red highlights. I know I am crazy. But I love every single bit of it. So, stop lecturing me, can? Let's just wait and see what happens to me when work commences and I will decide from there.

However, I have yet to thank Nani and Azri for assuring me that my hair looks perfectly fine. I no longer wear a hair band now. Hoho! So, finally enough about the hair issue. Well, least for the time being.

Anyway, I have finally decided to bake that oreo cheesecake yesterday. I started late at night and only gets to sleep at 4am! Results?

It was so good. Haha! Not that I'm trying to praise myself. The cake was left with 2 slices when I reached home just now at 11pm. Everyone loves it. And for the record, I shared it with Azri's family too. Like finally. I am so proud of myself. Haha!

After delivering the cheesecake to his house, off we went to do our planned activities. As usual, I am sure bound to run errands for my mum. She made me go to Seah Street to find the stuffs she wants. When asked where the place is exactly, she was totally clueless! We did find the place though after our treats at the Army Market. I have never favoured going to Beach Road's Army Market. The place is so stuffy that I will complaint every second. BUT today, I was being such a good girl. I endured the whole trip with only a few complaints. Good huh.

Since we have already made our way there, of course we savoured the famous 'Sup Tulang'! (Read: Bone Steak.) It was very heavenly. I wouldn't mind going to Beach Road again, to eat. Bone steak, fried noodle, and sugar cane juiced were our meal for the day. How fulfilling filling!

Beach Road and Seah Street down! Next pit was Marina Square. Got myself a Croc pumps for work and decided to catch a movie, 'AWAKE'. Big thumbs up! I shan't go onto details regarding the movie or even give a synopsis. Just say, I did not fall asleep in the theatre (given that I tend to fall asleep or gets restless most of the time.) Nice movie, seriously. Go, go catch it and tell me how you feel.

Okay, a little bit out of track. Nani's blog touched me. And yes I miss those pillow fights too, girl! How time flies. Really.

Okay, bye loves!

2008-04-17T19:43:00.004+08:00

Emotions with regards to yesterday still overwhelmed me. So I was grumpy in the morning. Due to that gastritis I have and what not the unquestionable stomach discomfort I have recently, my mom has been diligently waking me up in the morning just so I can have my breakfast. How sweet.

It is my habit to have my breakfast first and a bath later. Thus, I washed my face, brushed my teeth and had that so not inviting Nestum, which after that had my bath and gotten ready for yet another driving lesson.

Just my day I guessed. My morning was greeted by a frivolous idiotic Malay bus driver. You know how your ez-link can backfire you and not give that beep sound upon tapping. I experienced just that. Not that it has no value, it just chose to cock-up. So, there I was trying as much to give it a beep sound but to no avail. Till the bus driver harshly directed me to tap on the other detector. And he didn't think I am a Malay too I supposed, because in his irritated expression, he was saying, "Hello, Hello Tap here! Eh, budak ni! Pekak agaknyer!" (Read: Hello, Hello Tap here! Alamak this kid might be deaf!)

Stupid bus driver. He said exactly that, out aloud that he thinks other passengers are dead or deaf too not to hear anything. I became even grumpier that I almost own the cheeks of a bulldog.

Right after driving, I was contemplating if I should head down to the hair salon whether or not my hair will look retarded aftermath. As stubborn as I can be, regardless of those comments, "No, don't do anything to your hair" or "Wait till end of the month or something", I chose to go to the hair salon TODAY.

My hair has split and dead ends. I want to cut and have it adapt to the environment. Least before work commence, you see. So, I did what I have wanted to do - Snip it off!

Results?

Totally retarded-looking. No joke.

Even my mom said I look retarded.

God save my soul.

2008-04-17T01:54:00.001+08:00

Partly,

Hot and stuffy day boils down to you having low mood, which by not getting the chance to go hair salon simply triggers your emotions more, leading you to have no mood at all.

Okay whatever.
I love to say complex sentences or even make a complex scene.

I am so horrendous. I don't even know how to simplify those words.

It reflected back on the conversation and I thought that I am actually eager to start work.

I can work like slaves and be haggard.
Get occupied like there is no tomorrow and nothing to be cared about.
To receive that salary transaction every month after slogging days by days.
Not be penniless and roam around the world, all alone.

At times like shiet, you know you can't depend on anyone else but yourself.

Everything is just an idiot to me now, especially boys who act like men and sadly, men who act like boys.

2008-04-15T23:30:00.002+08:00

Today was a last minute of plan. Was chatting with my two girlfriends and we decided to meet - Natasha, after 4 solid years of not meeting or even bumping and of course, the lady with gorgeous boobies, Nani. It was a short session though. We had dinner at Hot Tomato and boy, it was totally splendid. As much as it was an embarrassment to me, I headed back to the same restaurant 2 hours later. This round was with none other than my annoying boyfriend. Oh well, a returned customer is a satisfied customer.

On a lighter note, Azri had purposely bought me a Froggy Bank which I named it Kermit, so that I will learn and start saving. I know I can be such a spendthrift but I have been quite good lately and keeping up my effort to save. I am feeling extra gay today. Reason being, I am eligible for GST Credits and Growth Dividends. Which means, save, save, save! Hoho.

Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall,
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.
All the king's horses and all the king's men;
couldn't put Humpty Dumpty back together again.

I am so so Gay, definitely.

2008-04-15T13:27:00.005+08:00

To the man I adore:

Thank you for being by me through thick and thin.
I love you.

2008-04-06T13:35:00.009+08:00

"Laugh and the whole world laughs with you!"

I want to go to parties, again...

2008-04-03T19:05:00.004+08:00

I have never watched the show, 'Britain's Got Talent' but I was overwhelmed by Connie Talbot. I wouldn't have known her existence if my girlfriend has not let me hear Connie Talbot sings.

Connie Talbot is only 7 and boy, she definitely gives me goosebumps.

She covers 'Three Little Birds' by Bob Marley. How cool!

2008-04-01T20:31:00.002+08:00

Just last week, I went to the bank with my boyfriend. It has been ages since I last deposit coins in the bank. I was dumb-founded with his bag full of coins waiting to be deposited. He said it was yet another round of time for him to break his piggy bank since it was already full.

To be honest, I have never liked coins; what more to save them. I thought a 5cents is worthless and merely taking up space in the coin purse.

The fact that I really suck at saving, he somehow motivated me to start saving whenever necessary.

So just as well, I was net surfing earlier on and I came across a strange piggybank selling online. It is known as, 'Face Bank' and it literally eats your coins while you insert.

Freaking gorgeous, freaking cool. Selling at S$55.90/-.

Now it made me want to save even more.
Yes, even if it is just a 5cents!

2008-03-31T02:54:00.003+08:00

I was out with a girlfriend of mine few days ago and she brought up the topic of being a Flight Nurse. The job scope kept me curious. Hence, I did my research.

Basically, the job of a Flight Nurse is as follows;

- Checking, monitoring and inventory management of medical supplies on planes.
- Researching, studying and attending training on emergency response, treating individuals without hospital backup and managing emergency issues in flight.
- Traveling to disaster areas to support emergency response teams.
- Flying and traveling with private individuals or groups of individuals that require medical attention or the ability to have medical attention at all times.
- Performing all necessary emergency and non-emergency medical procedure while in flight or at the scene of disasters and emergencies.
- Training in emergency response and preparedness. Coordinating training and workshops for others.

http://www.jobprofiles.org/heaflightnurse.htm
http://www.lifeflight.org/about/employment_flight_nurse.html

Challenging huh?
I thought so too. =>

I would consider it. Well, perhaps another few years down the road.

2008-03-30T23:35:00.001+08:00

It has been a really messy week filled with anxiety, quarrels, nightmares, worries and stress. I had few nights of insomnia that I almost went berserk.

I was called down by the HR to have my pre-employment medical check-up done last Friday and to register my name in Singapore Nursing Board. I am now a full-fledge Registered Nurse. As much as I am not looking forward to step into another phase of life, I guessed it is time that I face the fact.

Fact is, I am no longer a full-time student.
Fact is, I got a full-time job.
Fact is, I am a full-time employee.

With all those facts, I now have a bigger responsibility and I have to stop fooling around.

I seriously don't want to mess my life up.

Boy, am I relieved all doubts have been cleared.
Syukur.

2008-03-24T15:14:00.004+08:00

I received a letter not too long ago stated likewise;

Dear Graduand

CONFERMENT OF DIPLOMA

We are please to inform you that the Assessment Board has, on 10 March 2008, conferred on you the DIPLOMA IN NURSING.

Congratulations!

You will receive your certificate at the Graduation Ceremony scheduled some time in May 2008. Details of the Graduation will be made known to you in due course.

We wish you every success in your future endeavours.

Regards,
*****

Thank God. What a relieved! =)

It's a fair day, yet I have no plans to kill my Monday blues. I've been having a very bad cough for almost a week and just as well, I'd better off stayed home. The fact that I've no more school and been missing in action with my part-time job, everything just boils down to number one – Boy, I am so bored.

Being a messy and untidy person I am, I decided to pack and re-organise my stuffs which are all over the place. Unfortunately, I did not do any single chores. Instead, I stoned and wondered what's going to happen years down the road.

The thought of everything scares me.

With my student ez-link card expiring in late April, simply means I have no liability to enjoy that concession I have been using and gotten used to throughout my education years. In a month time, I'd be wearing the thick white uniform and black shoes to and fro and this time, not as a student but as one of the staffs. The only bills I have so far and of course, have not been paying it by me is none other, my handphone bill! My mum will have one responsibility down because she has all the reason for not giving me any allowance or school-pocket money and needless said, paying my bills and other miscellaneous.

What's with my study loans, tuition fee loans, personal savings, splurges, etc. I'm not sure if I can successfully juggle everything and still be kicking happily.

This is so traumatising!

Why is being an adult so not trouble-free?

2008-02-26T20:51:00.002+08:00

I have never meant to make situations difficult for you.
Sometimes the words used are just direct and sharp.

I should have known better.

2008-02-01T22:29:00.000+08:00

At last...

Seriously...

Finally...

It’s time to say...

GOODBYE STUDENT NURSES!

Hooray Duray.

We are definitely so gay!

See you and Goodbye!

2008-01-12T22:16:00.000+08:00

Hold on to love,

that is what I do

Now that I've found you

And from above,

everything's stinking

When they're not around you

And in the night,
I could be helpless
I could be lonely,
sleeping without you
And in the day,
everything's complex
There's nothing simple,
when I'm not around you

But I miss you when you're gone
That is what I do, Hey Baby
And it's going to carry on,
That is what I knew, hey, Baby

Hold on to my hands
I feel I'm sinking,
sinking without you
And to my mind,
everything's stinking
Stinking without you

And in the night,
I could be helpless
I could be lonely,
sleeping without you
And in the day,
everything's complex
There's nothing simple,
when I'm not around you

And I miss you when you're gone
That is what I do, hey, Baby
And it's going to carry on
That is what I do, hey, Baby

2008-01-11T19:02:00.000+08:00

Each seconds, each breath that has led us here now regardless of any obstacles or contentment;
Another brand new year with blessed new age, welcomes 2008.

Numerous incidents happened.
Good or bad, happy or sad.
And we know they occurred with reasons behind.

I was no way better like other youths.
Gotten into foolish episodes and claimed I was cool.
It always began in high school.
How influential.
There, you valued peers more than your bloodline, thinking they are just an embarrassment.

I was pretty biased last time.
I thought I love him as much as I love her.
I thought wrong.
It seemed that I love her more than I love him.
I gave the impression unknowingly; so much till fellow friends actually commented me on that.
I just knew there's a little hatred lies in me
No one knew why. Not even me then.

Jealousy happens and it's inevitable.
Such that it happened at anywhere, on anytime, with anyone.
I used to think she was so much superior to me in any aspect.
I used to think people cared for her more than they did for me.
It just seemed to be the way it is.
The way they asked for our health-being and school during get-together sessions.
I thought everything was just unfair.

Things screwed up at times.
Friendships. Relationships.
Present or past ones.
I faced plenty of them.
And I thought, that would mean the end.

I appeared to be a nonchalant person.
Too laid back that people thought I'm ignorant.
In fact, they knew nothing.

Funny isn't it.
Each and every end of the year you hoped and wished for a new resolution.
And again, each and every year you thrashed out the same old thing.

I don't see a need to have a resolution.
But I know, the pasts are ought to be learnt.

I was just in a growing phase of having valued my peers more than anything.
I being cool back then means to get myself fooled.

I'm beginning to appreciate both of my old ones.
I learnt what had happened was simply a plain emotional distressed.
I was a kiddo years back and unfortunately it grew in me.
And I guessed that was just why.
I'm lucky to have them still; that matters most.

They never knew what I’m going through.
They never knew whether or not I’m striking hard for the best.
It kept me thinking.
And now I know why the hell I should not even bother about them.
Cos' they are extended and not immediate ones in my life.
People like them won't bring me down in any way.

I'm not ignorant.
I'm not that sociable.
I tend to be choosey.
I don't relate my pasts and presents together.
Ex-es and presents don't mix well.
I'm not arrogant.
It's just principle and ego.

These are all that kept me ranting each year, most of the times.
That makes me alive.
And of course, my loved ones too.
They have been very supportive and no one values more than them to me.

With love,

JeeJee.

2008-01-02T01:05:00.000+08:00

Wants and Needs.

I need that N95.
I need that jean.

I want that pretty bag.
I want that earpiece.

I want and need Money, I think.

2007-11-11T00:00:00.000+08:00

A whole lot of love.

Wishing that your 21st Birthday...

Pops with delight,
Bursts with joy,
And rings with laughter

All through!

Happy Birthday Cheryl Chng!

2007-11-08T18:30:00.000+08:00

Our Diwali mini celebration @ Sembawang.

Thanks Sitha, for the invitation.
We had a real good time, laugh and companions.

2007-11-05T21:49:00.000+08:00

Unfortunately, as years passed by, we get ~~older~~ younger.

The companions we had and the memories we shared are definitely irreplacable.

It's way belated.
But what the hell.

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin, all!

2007-11-01T23:07:00.000+08:00

I've never met anyone as egoistic and unreasonable as YOU.

FULLSTOP!

2007-10-07T01:11:00.000+08:00

October doesn't seem to be an easy month as how I thought it would always be.
With attachments, the fact that Hari Raya is coming, and all.

Much as I wanted, I'm not enjoying each of my days.
I realised...

I've always thought attachments are dreadful.
Hari Raya is no longer an excitement as compared to before.

I've always wanted to be in your mind each minute.
I realised...

It's not important.

Before it gets us suffocated, I'd better off take a big step back.

I realised...

Life isn't always a luxury.

2007-08-01T21:10:00.000+08:00

Star Movies (Ch 58) screened the movie, ‘Narnia’ last Sunday.

It would be better if I had watched it with you.
Along with our bag of sweetened popcorns and fizzy colas.

And of course, that small embrace from the back.

2 years, oh boy how time flies.
Get me home at 1am again?

Hoho.
Sweet remembrance.

"Mr Thomnus is undeniably cute."

2007-07-29T23:02:00.000+08:00

"When I was younger, so much younger than today..."

We expect more of The Unxpected.
It turned out to be the most unEXpected.

Hoot. Just wait till I get myself down Holland.

Triple happiness was good enough.

Pretty pretty love indeed.

Happy a year and a 7 Love!

2007-07-23T20:14:00.000+08:00

To those with heavily packed schedules,

Take a time out people!

Wala-ing.
Sentosa.
Movies.

And the list goes on.

Oh I can't wait!!

2007-07-22T22:13:00.001+08:00

Unpredictable weather but we made it nonetheless. =)

See you again in a month time, beautiful beach!

Oh.

This man certainly rocks my world.

Hoho. Love you lots lahh!

2007-07-17T18:07:00.000+08:00

A conversation that determines what my girlfriend has to say about my boyfriend.

★ cheryl. consistency please. says (5:26 PM):
jee!!
her casual affair. says (5:30 PM):
yess
★ cheryl. needs consistency. says (5:32 PM):
jus now i tot abt sth
★ cheryl. needs consistency. says (5:32 PM):
i mean it occured to me while i was bathing

★ cheryl. needs consistency. says (5:33 PM):
i was thinking azri really cares n loves for u lots
★ cheryl. needs consistency. says (5:38 PM):
cos a guy wouldnt be so generous with his money if he didnt really care n love u
her casual affair. says (5:38 PM):
really meh? i thot guys will be generous with money to attract girls?
★ cheryl. needs consistency. says (5:38 PM):
noo
★ cheryl. needs consistency. says (5:39 PM):
thats is maybe during courtship that u can say that
★ cheryl. needs consistency. says (5:39 PM):
but now hes ur bf
★ cheryl. needs consistency. says (5:39 PM):
its diff
★ cheryl. needs consistency. says (5:39 PM):
and u all tgt for one n half yrs
★ cheryl. needs consistency. says (5:39 PM):
but he still puts in effort to bring u home all the way everytime
★ cheryl. needs consistency. says (5:39 PM):
and still spend alot on u
★ cheryl. needs consistency. says (5:39 PM):
this means hes serious right
★ cheryl. needs consistency. says (5:40 PM):
i dun know i was jus thinking abt this jus now
★ cheryl. needs consistency. says (5:40 PM):
esp the bringing u home every time
★ cheryl. needs consistency. says (5:40 PM):
i think its really sweet
★ cheryl. needs consistency. says (5:40 PM):
mostly guys will only do that during the honeymoon period that aft that they dun care aldy
her casual affair. says (5:40 PM):
u thot abt US? hahaha. u so sweet lah
★ cheryl. needs consistency. says (5:40 PM):
hahaha
★ cheryl. needs consistency. says (5:40 PM):
yah lah

You make my heart throb fast and hard; more than the first time it did.

Hoho.

=) love.

2007-07-12T01:15:00.001+08:00

This is getting no way better.

School tasks are increasing each week and I seem to have lost interest in my temporary job.

I seriously need to take a breather.

Sentosa, pretty please?

2007-06-11T00:45:00.000+08:00

It's a mere distraction of life.

You'll never know what is happening tomorrow.

Ill luck happens anytime.
Fortuity happens only at times.

2007-05-16T16:32:00.000+08:00

You stop to ponder.

Men's ego does increases as they grow old.

I was conversing to a girlfriend of mine in school just now when suddenly she received an unknown call. It turned out to be the man who she got to know through online recently. Unfortunately, it wasn't a good start.

Just why the hell do older guys like to preach on a thing or two when striking on a conversation with someone they just got to know or even during courtship?
They must have thought that they are old and have more power in hand.

You know those kind of quotes, 'I've tasted more salt than you... Blablabla.'

In the first place, why do they even bother to hook up a girl who's way younger than them and subsequently remarked, "Oh why are you being childish? Can you please think and act maturely?"

Stupid jerks.

The best thing is that, their friends might even give them oh-so-constructive comments such as, "I don't think she's good for you. She's only 20, and you're way older than her. She'll still be playful and fooling around, whereas you want to find a good life partner."

Now, who's the one acting childish and not think maturely here?
Men even fool around when they are 50. Worst, when they are married!

Stinky old stockinettes!
The most disgusting creatures are people like them.

It's freaky when you keep having awful dreams concerning your loved one and all the assurance you got was, "Come on. They are just dreams."
It's very frustrating when you just can't seem to let yourself trust the present situation.
That's not the matter though.

2007-04-30T22:47:00.000+08:00

I'm clueless yet there are things I wish to blog about.

To begin with, my cute little babe, Pandora (a cat of mine, if some of you might not know), is having a fever. How sad can I be upon knowing that her body is indeed very warm just before I made my way off to school? Glaring at her sickly expression is devastating. She doesn't even allow me to touch or carry her. She bites when I touched and groan when I made an attempt to carry her to sleep with me.

And it's sad enough to know that my sister's cat needs to survive on hormone pills until its last breath.

You tell me how now.

A different story altogether, each individual here is facing problems living together somehow. It's very infuriating and irritating to be gossiped about as well as being looked down upon.
Why does it always happen to us and not the others?
What's there in them and not in us?
Why is it that their children are forever better than us, and we are not?

I can understand the situation he's in, we're in.
It's a torture to be a hypocrite under one roof.
Not having the freedom of doing what we always do back then as an average happy family.

On a lighter note, to my other half, thanks again for the wonderful times we've went through together.
You showed me how beautiful life is.
You corrected my unconscious flaws.
You guided me when I'm lost.
You scolded me when I'm spoilt.
You pampered me like nobody's business.
You gave me chances whenever I needed one.
You secured me with your assuring words.

With all that, how can I not learn to appreciate you more?

Happy 16th months, love.

Love love love.

2007-04-29T01:08:00.000+08:00

Just when you thought you had lots of fun...

It turned out to be an amusing, comical day.

No more 20cents.
No more stinging tingling.
No more giggles.

Can I shout out loud please?
Oh 191st!

Mummyyyyy! It's Overrrrr!

2007-04-28T14:09:00.000+08:00

Isn't she adorable?

Here ~~kitty kitty~~ Pandora...
I know you love the camera.

2007-04-24T20:48:00.000+08:00

To Tom, Dick, Harry and Toothless Mary.

First of all, my blog is not dead.
I'm the one who is.
I'll tell you why.

I'm left with only ONE semester with very tight suffocating schedules, before months stretched of clinical attachments and after which marks the end of my tertiary education - graduation.

5 weeks of on-course attachment plus another 3 months of PRCP upon graduation.
How lucky can my batch be when previous batches had only 6 weeks of PRCP?
Very ~~lucky~~ unlucky.

All modules are then squeezed into one semester and you bet we year 3 are struggling like ugly tortoises in school.
And judging the amount of assignments and upcoming tests, we'll soon become pandas in due time.

On top of that, I still have my part-time job. I'd be lying if I were to say I'm enjoying my job as much as I did 2 months back.

Having said that, is work a curse or a blessing?
I'd say a curse. Haa.

Anyway, it's the 2nd week of school and do bless us; I and my friends have been obediently attending our lectures. Yes, even the morning ones.
What can I say when the lecturers are indeed way smarter than us (intelligent but not brainy enough). They somehow deliberately scheduled labs or tutorials as the first lesson so that we can't skip any periods.

Besides, why must they make it a compulsory for year 3 students to have a NAPFA test? After years of not having any physical education and they want us to run and jump.
They said we need to be proven fit.
I doubt it. They just want to kill us.

Bottom line is I need a life.
Or maybe not considering I already have one.
Dumbo.

I need to take a breather.
Like seriously.

~~Boy~~ Girl, you took my breath away.

2007-04-14T02:18:00.000+08:00

My hatred shift is your night shifts.
It kept me thinking lots of things and made me feel unreasonable.
Very scary it is.

How I wish I am busy as you.
Then again, I wish I'm busier.

At the very least, I'll be the one who's quiet and ignorant.

You know, I wouldn't want you to think I'm difficult or make you seem to be suffocated as how you describe her.

Oh god.
The walks are getting harder.

How exhausting it is at this point.

I don't even know what I want now.That's how bad tangled my mind is.

Maybe, it's not even a fuss.
Maybe, it's just missed.

2007-04-09T20:09:00.000+08:00

Baby baby baby.

Weeks passed.

Attachment is over and done with.
I own a new female cat named, Pandora.
As usual, my hair is cut short again.
Nothing new, I have my brand old other half still.

I love every bits of it.

Both cats are mine.

Yes, I'm still surviving.
Love love love.

On a lighter note, for those who might have been there chilling out at Esplanade or watching the night performance last Saturday, they must have agreed with me that was such an excellent one.

Rock on The UnXpected!
And of course, biggie kudos to Shirlyn.

2007-03-13T23:52:00.000+08:00

I was chatting with a friend of mine and he commented this.

@ciTz > says (11:33 PM):
hie.. did u went 2 town yesterday?
the boy i killed. says (11:33 PM):
yes i did
the boy i killed. says (11:33 PM):
why?
@ciTz > says (11:34 PM):
hmm.. mayb i saw u..
the boy i killed. says (11:35 PM):
izzit?
the boy i killed. says (11:35 PM):
at where?
@ciTz > says (11:37 PM):
sumwher near taka.. but i not sure izzit u or not..
the boy i killed. says (11:37 PM):
yeah..
the boy i killed. says (11:37 PM):
i was there.

Okay that’s not important. This is.

@ciTz > says (11:40 PM):
ohk.. y r u getting thinner?.. did not eat enuf ar?
the boy i killed. says (11:40 PM):
getting thinner??
@ciTz > says (11:41 PM):
ah2.. y?

Oh how I ~~not~~ love those kinds of remarks.

*Cheeky laughs out loud*

2007-03-13T23:06:00.000+08:00

Peace.

Exam results are out today.
Thank god, I passed each and every one of my modules.

Goodbye Biology. I won't see you in Year 3.
*star jumps*

On the other note, I know I've been rather occupied with my job at Pastamania.
And there's never a chance for me to go out with the girlfriends due to our busy schedules and plans.
Yesterday was a nice make-up.
Thanks Prim and Cheryl for the nice short evening.
;)
Not to forget the cab ride home.

As usual, when there's school vacation, there's attachment.
You can say I'm not looking forward to it.
Not that I hate attachment though.

The fact that the lecturers or instructors tagged you behind everywhere you go is just scary.
Yes, I said scary. And of course, irritating.
They are out to squeeze your brain out till no cerebral fluid left.

They have high expectations. Like extremely.
Intellectual nurses, they love.

Sad to say, I'm not cut to be one.

I prefer mingling with the disabled ones.
Say, teaching the autistic kids?

Or, stick to me wanting to be a psychiatric nurse.

I don't know if I'm even fit to be one. Yikes.

Haa.

Take care loves!

2007-03-08T13:31:00.000+08:00

Just like any other day.

I'm replacing one of my colleagues later today.

Heep Heep Whoray?

Bleurgh.
Hip Hip Hooray!

Extra money baby.

2007-03-08T02:38:00.000+08:00

What do you do when you can't sleep?

Even after you count sheep or bite your nails.
Or suck your thumb.

And you still can't get to sleep.

Damn it.
I want to sleep can.

Problem is I'm like freaking awake right now.
At this time, this hour.

Anyway, attachment is near.
Exam results will be released soon.
Part-time job is going to be on pending.
School's re-opening in few weeks.

I want to hoogey-boogey again.

Err.
Come fly me to the moon?

2007-03-04T02:29:00.000+08:00

Love turns you into nuts.

I love being nuts.
And I'm certainly nuts about you.

When are we hoogey boogey-ing again?

Oh I can't wait!

2007-03-01T03:14:00.000+08:00

Okay what now people?

I'm beginning to get hold of the job. Come this week, will be a total of 3 weeks of experienced. Not too ~~bad~~ good though.

Today was pretty disastrous.
All crews, cooks, managers are frigging busy!
I had to do inventory for my bloody first time.
I had to do what I ought to do as per normal for closing.

And oh yeah baby, I still fumbled.

Why, you might ask.

Shortage of staff ar!

Damn it.
Anyone needs a job?
Feel free to come down.

That particular outlet needs you.
Definitely.

It seems like I've been blabbering nothing else except my new part-time job.
Hohoho. Not that I am enjoying it.

But it's the only thing that's keeping me occupied yet for now.
Just what till I start on my attachments.

So what happens if you work during your precious school vacation?
Answer: Just work and sleep your arse off.

Tell me how fun is that?

Huahuahua.

2007-02-26T01:34:00.000+08:00

Last Thursday,

Manager: JeeJee. Tie your hair up can? Can ar?
Jee: Arrhh? No cannot. *Ties up hair*
Manager: Arh now better. Neater.
Jee: *smirks*

Just today,

Manager: No wearing of printed belts ar. Only solid black.
Jee: I knooww. Last minute ar. I don't have any BLACK BLACK belt.
Manager: Ar then?
Jee: I'll buy lah.
Manager: Then ar... Don't wear your eyeliner too black can? Later my boss drop by, kena scolding you know.
Jee: OKAAAY. *Bleurgh*

Okay now. How can I achieve that?

1. Tie my hair or just snip it off short.
2. Go and get ONE black belt. Goodness!
3. Not too thick of my eyeliner or just go plain Jane.

Wait ah dear manager. Step by step.
Sheesh!

Holidaying loves!
3 weeks of enjoyment before the dreadful attachment starts.

At the present time, let me try to be a pleasant Pastamaniac alright.

2007-02-23T02:06:00.000+08:00

I broke a glass. At work.
I served the wrong orders. At work.
I cut myself. At work.

My back aches when I sweep the floor. At work.

Oh. I couldn't even mop the floor properly. At work.
Bloody housekeeping!

That is me AT WORK.

Clumsy.

2007-02-19T01:35:00.000+08:00

Here's a start. Not too much of wordings; a few shots though.

I've created a new blogger account as I've accidentally deleted the previous one. Yes, it was dumb of me. If some of you might still be kept in the dark, I'm already having a part-time job.

Why work, you ask? To get married.
Idiot. Don't ask. I won't answer.

I'm always out of breath and having blocked nose recently.
I've no idea why and it's pretty scary.

Anyway, what I did today was to be a lamppost. I tagged my sis along with her boyfriend. Reason being is to kill my time before meeting mine.

Oh. I'll be moving back SOON.
Where?
Pasir Ris.
Yeah, soon. In due time.

Okay I'm breathless now.
Let the pictures end the blogging.

Breathless Love.

2007-02-18T00:00:00.000+08:00

An overdue entry.

1GB memory stick.
A pair of green ripples' slippers.
Yet another star necklace.

Happy Belated Valentines!

2007-02-17T10:14:00.000+08:00

Previously, I had difficulty in signing in to beta blogger.
I knew I can get it done.

I SHOULD have thought of it earlier.

I do not want to depend on you.

2007-02-17T03:55:00.000+08:00

I have accidentally deleted my previous account -
http://ehmprezsiveroemants.blogspot.com

How dumb!